Wilkinson, John A. W.
Dilemma in the Fourth Way
Mr G.I.Gurdjieff was a teacher of the Fourth Way and he indicated in his writings that it required only a relatively small number of conscious Beings to bring about a re-balancing of the obviously unbalanced societies on earth.
Despite all the various schools propagating his work this has patently not happened, which must be of some concern to the ‘Higher Intelligences’ responsible for Evolution on this planet.
It is true, we have hundreds of powerful, self satisfied egos running about on earth claiming to propagate the ‘True’ Way. And even, not a few, of what Mr Gurdjieff would call ‘Enlightened Idiots’. It is also probably true that quite a number of people would class me as one of the above! But, be that as it may, it is of great concern to me, and some others who have sincerely worked to practice and spread true development.
What has gone wrong? Is there something that we have missed? Have some practises become the opposite of what they were intended? Have ideas become fixed instead of evolving to meet the new demands of changing times? Have we ignored the demand to constantly criticised and question our methods, aims and actions? And so on and so forth…Mr Gurdjieff warned of the dangers of all the above.
Recently during my exercises and meditations something has surfaced that seemed nothing at first, or of little import, until it struck me forcibly that this one seemly unimportant element might lie at the heart of what has gone so wrong.
It is this…when I used to finish an exercise and was in a truly collected state, I affirmed myself in the words ‘I AM’. You notice I said, ‘I affirmed’, this ‘I’, that short affirmation, CANNOT BE the True Self. It is more likely that it is the ego affirming it’s own strength and dominance. Now when I reach this collected state I find that ‘I Am’, and I affirm this in my self, as a humble servant of the Divine. I have found this practise to be of great healing and re-centring of where I come from and I pray that one day I can be forgiven my past arrogance. I hope that this can be of help to someone.